sunday
i thought that you’d want what i want… sorry, my dear.
there was a monstrous moon hanging next to the blue blinking skyscraper in a crisp winter night. i almost drove off the street on my way home because it was so - breathtaking.
mood-o-meter: 1.2
Posted by
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21:48:23
oh, are you still sleeping with skyscraper girl? i thought she was out of the picture.
as regards the n. situation: there is no guilt to be felt in wanting something, there is no guilt to be felt in not wanting something, there is also (unfortunately?) no intellectualising whether or not you do. are you interested? are you attracted (from the heart)? if not, don’t try to make yourself.
i am not even sure that what you really mean is “stormy love” vs. “calm love”; perhaps it’s about genuine emotion.
the “not forcing things” idea is a chapter that, it seems to me, many (even otherwise very emotionally eloquent) men seem to skip in basic relationship skills 101. is this related to notions of duty and masculinity? or is it even gendered? certainly many women too stay endlessly in lukewarm relationships out of some sense of obligation, some “surely this is the kind of person i must be wanting to wrap my arms around.”
but there’s this anxiety with men, the “oh god, i don’t want this person, what do i do? what’s WRONG with me?” let’s not forget that ultimately, evolutionary psychology ideas aside, we ARE more than just animals, we are acting on more, it is more complicated and subtle than that.
i fail to understand why so many people seem to find virtue in being able to teach one’s heart to lie.
I respect your work,it is the most nice one i ever see
your space is amazing!